The last few days have been rough. Real rough. I'm dealing with letting go. Something everyone can relate with. I made a reach out to friends and have lots of people praying for me. I gatta tell ya its a great feeling.

So, a question. Why is it so hard to remember who exactly is watching over us every moment of existence? I mean for real, the creator of the entire universe stays right next to us all the time. All the time. Things can't go wrong, it's not possible.

Earlier this summer I learned a crazy lesson. Even in disobeying God, I was doing what he wanted. There was someone I worked with and God said, hey go talk to that person. Well, I didnt. Lame reasons I was tired in was a really busy day, I didint make it a priority. Well two days later I talked to that person and found out that was all God's plan. They told me "yeah, thats right. If you would have talked to me two days ago I would have said nothings wrong, but today there is something". It was crazy. My friends had a friend back home who really needed some prayer, so we prayed. It was great stuff.

Well, My head is still confused (and yes most certainly in a bottle). So I am still trying to let go. To understand no matter what I cant control things. If my car breaks it breaks. If I study for hours on a test and get a B not and A like I wanted. I need to move on.

In conclusion (yeah I dont know just wanted to say that). I am going to do my best to give up

Remember were all in this together I'm pulling for ya, keep your stick on the ice.

I sit here beside the rain after three days of doubt

its taken me far to long to understand my secrets been let out

Of imperfection, mental correction and the dire need to shout

Seeing my face look back in the puddles I wonder what made me in the first place muddle whit the Begining and the end and while I've heard youtube extent that Jesus is my friend, it comes back time and time again and

this time is when I realize all the lies that have passed forth in front of my eyes to try to super size the aspect of my control

But now I understand why commanlity=man and man you should have seen the light

Its this time and this ten lined rhyme who's really right

Mind bottling

Yes, Mind bottling ---- Where life gets so crazy your mind is trapped, like in a bottle. These days the confusions of combination of corresponding concerns seem to pile up in a catastrophic conclusion. Like I said Mind bottling

Stress and pressure of school and money and life and everything just build and build. and its in this time I know that I need God the most, but its the hardest to hear him though unpaid bills, upcoming tests. and ringing phones.

And in the confusion, I forget. I forget that every step I take God is walking beside me, that there is the creator of well everything right by my side. That the one who named everystar, made the world turn, made me, is always there.

My mind is in a bottle and God has the opener.

ka-chick

The Begining

Here begins the creation of my mind. The thoughts and things that flow freely through my mind on many occasion. Some will be filled with thoughtful rhetoric, tantalizing theory, Poems, Songs, Rants, and just plain gibberish, true Jaberwocky. So sit back, creep your eyes over all the intricacies of illusion